Category: Raw Honesty

Some thoughts.

From the first woman who ever loved you, but not the last.

From the first woman who loves you forever, but not the last.

From the first woman who kissed your precious little face, but not the last.

From the first woman who’s trying for as long as she lives to give you true unconditional love, but my deepest hope is I’m not the last: because at the end of the day, who you love and who loves you is what matters most.  May you fully know unconditional love.

From the woman who’s learned the hard way, the first person for me to love unconditionally is me, and the first person for you is you. Forgive yourself every last thing, big or small matters not.  Forgive you and love you.

 

From the woman who said, “Get to know yourself well enough to work with who you are” decades ago and had no idea the depth of truth to that statement.

May you know the truth, because it does indeed set you free.

 

Pain. You’ve already endured more than you ever should have.

It’s a part of life, it hurts, it’s no fun and sometimes it feels like you’ll be crushed under the weight of it and that there’s no way to even take a breath.

And why, why does it seem to hurt the worst at night? Being tired magnifies every bad emotion 10x’s and more.

Pain is the one emotion people run from and anesthetize more than any other. After I tried food, staying up way too late, binge watching t.v., running, tequila, men, shopping (if I buy that I’ll feel better), anger in raging at anyone who crossed my path, I could go on and am sure you could add some but you get the point.

I’ve discovered another way.

When the crushing blow is dealt, walk right into it, breathe it in, feel it completely and let it engulf you like an ocean wave and succumb to it. Then ride it for as long as it takes to finally break on the shore.  When it breaks, and it will, slowly stand up, gain your footing and walk one step at a time as the healing begins to flow.  One day at a time.

Not an easy task, but a worthwhile endeavor. As the healing flows, so do wisdom and truth.

Unconditional love (you first), forgiveness (you first), seeking truth, navigating pain and above all is…

Rest.

Sometimes you have to fight for your rest, other people, situations, and even yourself. A good night’s sleep is the cure for much more than we realize.  Rest.

 

So why did I do this? Because I realize I say many words, but don’t say much.  I want to make sure I get said what’s really important.

With love,

A mom who loves her sons with every ounce of her being